Two days on… Strangely, absurdly normal

So if you have been following this sad saga, you will know that my wife of almost 24 years passed away the other day.  Today we had a more empty house (though we still had two guests!)  it was much quieter and less frenzied.  The days was gobbled up in all sorts of silly chores – sorting out paper work, logistics, financial matters etc.  There is seemingly a giant ‘stuff hopper’ just above our heads raining down chores and endless tasks. Yet life goes on; washing is done, food prepared, cats are fed. 

The thing I can’t get over to you is how wrong this normality is.  The key turns in the door and I expect it to be her.  Forever is an impossible concept to grasp.  Luckily, we only have to manage one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time.

Gradually (I guess) the centre of gravity will shift.  A mighty tree has fallen and let the light shine on those beneath that they may grow stronger….

Tags: Carys

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